ITS HAMMER TIME

Deciding your going to fire someone and keeping them around until the new blood finds their place is a strange and uncomfortable thing.

I need to fire someone at work. It bothers me and I really wonder why. I don't really know this person, as I am new to this job. This person, more often then not, does a lousy job. He is inconsistent, lazy, and tries to elude responsibility. Here is the problem for me. I have been fired more then once for a myriad of reasons.

Getting fired sucks. This person once did not come to work, nor did he call in. For me, that was the nail in his coffin. All of this mind you took place in less then a month.

Now there is the school of thought about how you can kill one, and get the respect of the others. I think I read that in 'The Prince'. I digress.

Anyway, that is another good reason, they see me fire a bad seed, they may come around from that facet. The rub is that even though I have in fact fired people, for both good and bad reasons, it always bothered me for the rest of the day. Melancholy stabs from the inside out, muddying my day with tiny splotches of guilt bleeding outward like grey blue watercolor, racing to fill me out to the edges.

The other side of my logic-less guilt, is, I will be very happy when he is gone. A change is in fact needed here. 

This is exactly why when ever I go into a Duane Reade to buy my sundries, I look at the cash register/ Customer Representative, and think, 'Man, now that is an easy job. May be I should just do that instead.'