It began about nine months ago. I was working for a place, that was beneath me, and It closed, so I lost my job. It was short term so I decided, fuck it, extend my last job on my resume, and be done with it. I have reliable references, I think I am interviewing well, and when it goes to a tasting, if I really want the job, it goes very well. So what has happened all of a sudden that is stopping me from being a humble professional that just wants to do the job I was trained for!!!!
This is crazy. I have sent a thousand resumes or so out, and have been on at least fifty interviews, and have done at least ten successful tastings. I am so burnt out and confused, humbled, humiliated, and distressed, I don't think I can face Em.I just made a simple home cooked meal recently for friends, and it seemed to go very well.
I know my shit is good. It almost feels like sabotage. But from where? who? why? I admit I have some people out there who would like to see me fail. I don't think they would go out of their way to do it though. Therein lies the rub. I have tried for the big dog jobs, the small dog jobs, even some cat type jobs in comparison, and nothing is panning out. I am feeling desperate, like the guy who can't climb out of the hole he fell into. I don't think I am going to make it for much longer, and do not know where to turn.
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